Have you ever wanted to uplevel your income and cannot figure out why what you are doing isn’t working? Looking back on early childhood and young adult events, I notice an underlying theme throughout all areas: my health, my relationships, and my wealth.
“I’m not worthy.”
I grew up with an abusive, alcoholic father until the age of 12. We never knew who was coming home from work each day. Would he be angry and throw things around or would he be charming and charismatic? Sometimes his mood would change from hour to hour. My dad continually called me stupid and told me I was not good enough. If I received a grade of 98%, rather than applaud, he would criticize and ask me why I did not get 100%. I was made to feel like I was “bad” for any small mistake.
So, I took on the role of being a perfectionist, perfectly. I stayed at most of my jobs for six years at a time. Excelling in my career, working my way up from the bottom to the top in extremely short periods of time became my mode of operation. However, even at the top of the company ladder, I was undervalued and underpaid in my position. Several employers had to hire three people to take my place when I left the company.
I had an alcoholic boss who would keep me on pins and needles as to which persona would “show up” to work that day. Was he going to be nice or was he going to be angry at me for something I did not do? I started tracking every conversation via email, just so I had proof that I was doing what I had been asked to do.
I felt a little bit like I was going “mad” wondering if I had misunderstood his requests somehow. My mind was chaotic and my stomach constantly hurt. How did this continually happen?
Reliving our trauma
I was constantly finding ways to re-enact my relationship with my dad. The underlying theme I began to notice was I am not worthy. Not worthy of love, not worthy of feeling protected and safe in a relationship, not worthy of money.
By erasing the belief that I am not worthy, so many things in my life began to change, money being just one of them. As I began to dig deeper, I noticed there are so many layers to feeling worthy of money, including our parents’ view of money, experiences we had as a child that shaped the way we view “rich” people, the way we view people who love money, and our own personal power in relationship to creating and achieving the financial freedom that we desire.
When change happens inside, change happens outside
I grew up in a household on an unemployment budget, eating corn meal mush for dinner and wearing my older sister’s green corduroy roller skate patch pocket Goodwill pants that were tapered down to fit me once she outgrew them. Now I own a gorgeous home with a view, a rental home and a vacation home while continuing to build a financial picture beyond our wildest imagination.
Realizing your potential, being a natural leader, feeling confident in what you are doing and how you are generating income and managing your finances is vital. I’d love the opportunity to discuss your personal needs for upleveling your beliefs, your income, and your life!
Please join me for a discussion in the Redefining Love Community about How Trauma Effects Your Money on Zoom on Friday, July 29, 2022, 9:30am.
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Heather McAbee is a Certified Resonance Repatterning Practitioner. She is trained in proven techniques to repattern trauma responses in the brain that are no longer serving a healthy purpose in your life. Prior to becoming a healer, Heather worked as a construction controller for 20 years, managing accounts up to $10 million. She has a passion for teaching others how to overcome their trauma so they can accept the blessing of wealth into their lives.
Visit Heather’s website at www.shiftingsands4health.com.